Not all who wander are lost


In two days I’ll be on a plane to Asia and life will never be the same. I’ve been keeping a secret from you guys that I haven’t been able to share until now.

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Brad and I have separated. He’s been living in Florida since June and I bought a one way ticket to Bangkok to leave this life behind and start over. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make—one I’ve struggled with for years. But all you saw on this blog was a facade of a seemingly happy, perfect life. And it was, on paperI had almost everything I’d ever wanted and dreamed about. So why couldn’t I be happy?

I’ve debated how much to open up and share with the world. This is just a DIY blog, everyone only wants to see pretty pictures and tutorials, right? For those of you in that camp, I apologize for the sudden turn of events, and no hard feelings if you want to move on. I have no idea what will become of this blog, because my entire life is up in the air right now. For the very first time I have no plans for the future. I’ll be landing in Bangkok with nothing but a backpack and my camera, no itinerary or familiar faces. Hoping a solo trek across Southeast Asia will allow me to find clarity and discover myself, on my own, without any crutches to fall back on.

A year ago I would have been terrified of the idea. But I’ve been going through a profound metamorphosis for months. The layers of my cocoon have been peeling away and Thailand is the last phase where I can finally break free and spread my wings, seeing the world through completely different eyes. Every fiber of my being is pulling in this direction. I’m not scared at all. This is the new Jenna Sue.

I’ve been journaling and documenting this entire process, feeling compelled to record every thought and emotion. It’s the most defining era in my life and I don’t want to forget a single moment. My goal is to be as raw and honest as possible throughout my backpacking journey while working through this personal transformation and finding real meaning in life. I know there are so many others out there with similar feelings but they’re too afraid/unsure/unaware to voice them… and I truly hope you continue to read this blog as I share more of my story, and find value and inspiration in the path I chose.

You are the designer of your destiny. You are the author. You write the story. The pen is in your hand, and the outcome is whatever you choose.

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My next post will be live from Thailand. I hope to have you on board with me and sincerely appreciate every uplifting word and thought sent my way. Here’s to a brave new life…

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157 thoughts on “Not all who wander are lost

  1. Oh Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about you and Brad but yet at the same time I’m excited for your new big adventure. I admire your bravery! I hope you continue to blog, even if it looks very different, and wish you all the best as you head on this new journey.

    1. Jenna, i’m so sorry to hear about your separation. It can be very overwhelming and heart crushing. You are a strong and courageous women whom I’ve grown to admire. Your blog has given me such hope and ideas so wonderful you should get a reward! I actually live my life thru your postings and wish I could be so creative and beautiful as you are. I wish you the best of luck and yes – happiness will come again to you. You have a wonderful gift that shines.

  2. I’m so sorry that you’ve been going through this difficult time. I hope Thailand is absolutely amazing, and everything you need. Please continue to update us on everything! You’ve been one of my absolute favorites for years and I only want the BEST for you.

  3. Wow- so sorry for your breakup but it sounds like you have many exciting adventures planned. Can’t wait to read and live vicariously thru you. Keep your head high!

  4. Jenna, big hugs to you for making a decision that is right for you and sharing it with your readers. I hope you find yourself on your journey and come back to the US when you are ready, if that is what you decide, refreshed and a changed person. <3 <3 <3

  5. Long time follower and first time commenter.
    I’m not religious but my mom used to have this sign in her bathroom that read “the Lord never gives us more than we can bear.” This little reminder has gotten me through some really rough patches in life. Embrace the change and embrace the light. A new tomorrow is on the horizon. Just be you.

  6. Wow, not exactly what I thought your announcement would be. Best of luck on your new adventure, I am in awe of your courage and spirit. I pray you find what you are looking for, and enjoy the journey.
    I do have to ask though…..what is going to happen to your house?

  7. Stretch your wings and fly, Jenna Sue. I look forward to seeing Thailand through your eyes. Your photos are always so beautiful.

  8. Hi Jenna,
    I’ve been following you for a long time now, but have only commented a few times over the years. It sounds like the journey of a lifetime, I’m sorry to hear of the process that has gone before it (am really not sure what to say, I wish you all the best). From your post I gather you’ll be taking us along and I just wanted to let you know how much I appreciate that.
    All the best for future and safe travels.
    Xoxo Sasha

  9. Oh, Jenna . I am so sorry to hear about your separation. Change is so hard. I commend you for taking such a bold step. Best of luck on your adventure.

    Much love to you,
    A

  10. I admire your courage. Life is too short to be unhappy. I hope you have an amazing adventure and get closer to finding your true destiny. Here’s to new beginnings! XO

  11. best of luck to you on your new adventure. I will miss the diy stuff – I adore your style! But…on to bigger and better things.

  12. So sorry to hear about your separation. Best wishes on your journey and hope you find what your soul needs to heal!

  13. Jenna,
    I’m sorry to hear that things in your personal life aren’t working out, but I think your next adventures are a perfect change of scenery and just what you need right now! I had a weird feeling over the last few months that something was going on with the relationship (sorry, sounds weird from a reader I’m sure). But know that there are always brighter things to come! I will stay, read and follow as long as you post. I hope you find your true happiness, or start to better understand what you’re looking for while you’re in Thailand. Keep your chin up, be free and know you have lots of longtime followers in your corner!
    Get it girl! <3 Sarah

  14. So brave! I just need an ounce of the courage you have to take some of the steps I know I’ve been needing to take. You’re such an inspiration and I hope you find what you are searching for.

  15. Dear Jenna – wishing you peace and clarification on your journey. I too have a blog only since June and would love to share more heartfelt posts other than just DIY. It is always frightening putting ANYTHING on a blog for people with very different interests to critique… I plan on following you through this journey because you seem to be a multi talented beautiful soul that will only excel further personally and professionally once you discover the peace you are looking for. I’ve just said a prayer for you and your journey in Thailand. May God watch over you all the way. ~Shelli

  16. I follow your blog for quite some time now and haven’t commented yet, but silently always admired your work. Even though your focus here will change inevitably, I am going nowhere, that’s for sure. 😉 You go, girl! I’m rooting for you. All the best for your future! May it contain many happy surprises.

  17. We love you, Jenna. This is so sad to hear, but you are still making a difference, even amidst your pain. I think you have drawn so many people not only because of your amazing DIYs, but because of your remarkable spirit– that’s what sets you apart. You are a truly inspirational woman and I wish you the best of luck in your endeavors.

  18. What an adventure. I look forward to following along. Best of luck! Also headed to Thailand in November so curious to get a sneak peek through your wonderful photography.

  19. Can’t wait to hear about your new adventures, and congratulations on taking these next steps. The first are always the hardest.

  20. I feel for you, this must be frightening and exhilarating at the same time. Good for you to doing what you know you need to do. I divorced at 27 and it was the absolute, without question, the best decision I could have made. I too headed to Asia, teaching English in Seoul for two years. By then I was dating my college best friend and we enjoyed two years of being together (married 10 years this spring), best experience ever. Thailand is wonderful, spent both winter holidays there while living in Seoul. If you have any questions or would like any practical travel advice, let me know. We traveled within Korea but also China and Thailand. My husband has also lived in Japan and traveled in Indonesia, India, and more so he’s a wealth of info. Best of luck, travel safe, and take care of yourself! -Tracy

  21. Jenna Sue, I’ve been reading your blog for a few years now. U and ur life have become part of my routine…I’ve always loved seeing your home and watching you transform nothing into something. I hope you find happiness and hope for a better future on your journey in Thailand. Life is too short to not be 100% happy. Best of luck! I will miss you! Be safe! xo

  22. Oh my! I’ve been reading your blog since you were living in FL. Not the news I was expecting! I can’t wait to hear more details! Lots of questions – why Thailand? What about your beautiful house in CA and your cats? You are brave to travel alone in a foreign country! All the best!

  23. I would say you are absolutely not lost…quite the contrary. You strike me as a strong young woman, who’s fearlessly facing her fears! You will be amazed and humbled by your resiliency and ability to flow with life’s currents.

    Be safe, be well, and may your journey be profoundly rewarding!

  24. I usually don’t comment on blogs, but I wanted to take a moment to do so on your announcement. Best of luck on your new adventure, I can’t wait to follow along and see where life takes you!

  25. Jenna,
    Search for “precious truth” like its a treasure and you will find it…..
    Blessings on you,
    Martha Silva

  26. So saddened by your news.. I can’t hep relate to Liz Gilbert’s life Eat pray love. She followed her heart and is extremely happy now.. Safe travels and please keep your readers posted. Ps a house is a house but your home is where your the happiest. God bless.

  27. Aww, honey. I’m so sorry for your separation. I had a feeling not all was well on the home front. I’m sorry for the loss of your marriage, but am so excited for you on this new journey. What a way to kick off a new way of life! Staying behind in your old home was probably hard as it surrounded you with memories of your marriage. Marriage can be one of life’s greatest blessing or it can bring some of life’s worst heartaches. I pray for blessings for you on this new path your are about to embark upon.

  28. As a long time reader of your blog, I wish you the best on your journey and hope you find that which makes you happy. Peeling back the layers and exposing yourself is raw, but it’s real and can be cathartic. Safe travels friend!

  29. Dear Jenna!

    I also did the separation deal and even though it sound so cliche I promise: it gets easier.
    I didn’t do the adventure part and I must say I admire you for it and will love reading about it.
    Also: a possibly good read for you
    http://www.ablogaboutlove.com/

    Greetings from Germany
    Jenn(ifer)

  30. Jenna – I applaud you for your bravery making this very difficult decision and as someone who stood in your shoes, not even a couple of short years ago, I promise you will find the life you want to live and the “you” that you want to be. My ex-husband and I were together for 10 years before I decided to divorce at age 29. I had the house, two dogs, he made great money which allowed me to quit my day job and do e-design, we traveled the world… But I wasn’t happy. I left all that behind (the dogs came with me :)) and I embarked on a new journey to the unknown. Fast forward to today, and I’m remarried to the love of my life. I don’t have my dream job and I don’t have all the “stuff” but I am happy! Best wishes to you! xo

  31. Wishing you the very best and safe travels. You are a true inspiration in every sense . I’m looking forward to your posts as you move on to the next chapter. Thank you for including us thru your next journey.

  32. Wow, what a surprise! I’m so sorry to hear about you and Brad, but wish you the best of luck on your upcoming adventure. You are incredibly brave and I admire your strength to follow your heart. I’m looking forward to following along and can’t wait to see where life takes you.

  33. Long time reader and will continue to follow you. I’ve been through it and sort of wondered if this would be your announcement (for no particular reason). I admire you for taking this huge, amazing next step for yourself and wish you the best.

  34. You’re so brave! It’s funny how you’re bravery has helped me look at a challenge I’ve been dealing with in a new way. I look forward to following your journey. Be careful out there, carry mace ;), and spread those wings. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers. *hugs

  35. Jenna,
    It’s amazing how much I feel like I know you from years of following your blog. My heart broke as I read this post. And yet you are so brave! All the best for your travels – I look forward to reading about them!

  36. Jenna,
    Best to you on your journey. I admire your courage to take to a new country. I enjoy your writing and of course, your DIY but I know I’ll have fun visiting Thailand as an armchair traveler as you share with us.
    xo,
    Karen

  37. My boyfriend of 6 years and I just split, so I understand the need for a fresh start. I’m excited to follow along with your journey and wish you safe travels!

  38. Yet another example of “Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.”
    A brave decision you’re making in life and in sharing on the internet. I wish you the best in your travels and hope that it helps you to heal and come out stronger.

  39. This is my first time to your blog, I somehow found you through instagram and I just wanted to say good luck with the trip and also ENJOY! I was in Thailand and Vietnam earlier this year and loved it. I heard many wonderful things about how peaceful Pai, Thailand was so I would suggest that as a possible destination for you. I hope this trip gives you what you need.

  40. The title of this post is my favorite quote that I had custom ordered from you as a print about 3 years ago! It is by far my favorite of all time! I will always be a reader of your blog and I look forward to following your journey on Instagram!

  41. Sweet Jenna….not what I was expecting. But.. I definitely wish you all the best on your new adventure. I will miss the decorating side of you….but am excited to see where your new found journey leads you. I have questions too, and maybe one day you’ll share….what will happen to the lovely home you created, what about your business, and the kitties? Might not be any of our business….but I feel close to you and cannot help but wonder. Anyway, all that aside….here is wising you nothing but JOY and happiness. I’ll be waiting for updates!! Be safe sweetie!!! Hugs to you.

  42. Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear about the separation, but you seem to be on your way to such a wonderful new adventure in your life. I’ll be praying for you as you journey through, and will continue to follow along. Be safe, and have fun!

  43. How truly brave to share your personal struggle with the world – thank you. Stay true to yourself. I’m looking forward to following however much of your adventure that you choose to share. Do you listen to the podcast “Dear Sugar”? It features author Cheryl Strayed. I just discovered it, and I have a feeling it might resonate with you.

  44. I’ve never left a comment on a blog before, but your post compels me to do so. I have very few friends in my life I call family. Recently a couple I have known for 17+ years got a divorce. That one couple you never think would. It was hard, I grew up with their kids. It was like my parents were getting a divorce. They had been together 24+ years. I have heard both sides of what happened. There is so much hurt there. I am astonished from the woman’s side, that despite her pain she has picked her self up and is trying to start over. Just by talking to her I have learned so much. I have learned you are enough, nothing is perfect, it takes two to get a divorce, not every story is one sided, you are not being selfish if you leave for awhile and figure things out, it’s ok to start anew and fine you, and my favorite, you don’t have to have it together all the time. You can have emotions and some times you have to show them. All of which can be done in a healthy manner. I don’t know if any of this helps. I sincerely hope you keep this blog going or start a new one. There are a lot of people here to support you. I don’t know what happened, and I don’t need to know. I am glad you and focusing on yourself and finding you. You are amazing! Spread your wings beautiful butterfly and happy landing. 😀

  45. As terrifying as the thought of leaving everything behind and starting over is, it is something that I’ve dreamed about for many years as well. There is something very enticing about being able to being fresh with a clean slate. Putting all the troubles and problems in the back of your mind. I wish you the best of luck as you search for clarity and meaning. And maybe you’ll inspire some of us to do the same.

  46. Hi Jenna!

    I was totally expecting a different announcement! It really takes so much courage to bring yourself to make that kind of huge decision. Regardless of who ended the marriage, it takes such strength to work through the pain to the other side. I hope you have the best time in Thailand. My dear friends live a little outside of Bangkok and love it. I think you’ll find that your money will go so much further there too. Hope your cute cats are in a good situation! Best of luck. I hope you continue to blog about your journey, even if it becomes more of a personal blog than a design blog.

    1. Also, if you want to be introduced, let me know! I mean I know I don’t personally know you, but it’s always nice to meet new people. He’s American and she’s Thai, they’re the nicest and most welcoming people.

  47. Wow I’m shocked. I’ve been following you, it seems, forever. I am so sorry things didn’t work out but kudos to you for this crazy exciting journey you are on! Wow- I just have so many questions… None of which you need to answer so I won’t even ask. I’ll still follow because you are awesome and I want to see you succeed!

  48. Jenna,
    I’ve been following your bog since Florida around the time you left your old job.
    Just want to say that I am really happy for you and wish you peace and happiness on your journey. It sounds like you’ve been thru a lot, and a separation is certainly a difficult thing to experience. I am proud of your confidence and your ability to stand up and do what you need to do to find clarity in your life.
    You are immensely talented and smart. It’s been so much fun to watch your home come together and your business grow. I’ve been incredibly inspired by things I’ve learned and seen you do in your home…thank you for putting it out there for us.
    And thank you for sharing this next part of your life.
    I hope you will continue to share your experience…even if there’s not a lot of blog action, maybe via instagram?
    You’re a sharp lady, and I am sure you are well-equipped, but do be careful traveling alone. Use your head, but follow your heart. 🙂
    Looking forward to hearing about your adventure!
    Take care,
    Brooke

  49. I just wanted to say ditto to all the previous comments. I’ve been following you for so long that I felt like my own heart got ripped out at the news of your separation, BUT I very much look forward to hearing about your new adventure! I’m super excited for you and I really hope you choose to keep blogging and keep us in the loop!! I see nothing but support here for you and that makes me super happy!! Good luck and travel safe!! ?

  50. You do know there was a wildly 😉 popular book about a backpacker and her adventures on the trail?? All the best to you and write it all down. These sorts of adventures tend to take on a fabulous life of their own.

  51. I applaud you for your bravery and transparency with such a challenging ordeal. Blogs have the tendency to sugar-coat everything, so to the readers all appears perfect. There is pressure to have it all together and frustration from knowing that you’re not presenting an honest image. While I cannot imagine the turmoil you have been going through these past few months, I hope that you feel freedom and relief from your decision to share your struggle, as well as a renewed excitement for the adventure that lies ahead. Whatever the future holds, please know that you have a tremendous amount of love and support from your loyal readers, myself included. Best of luck on this journey of a lifetime!

  52. I’m a regular reader of your blog, but first time commenter. So sorry to hear about your separation, but being someone who’s gone thru’ this before, things will def. get better for you. You are an extremely talented person, who isn’t afraid to take risks and work hard, so nothing but the best awaits you.
    Good luck, and know that we readers are always here for you.

  53. Best Wishes on this new chapter of your life and great adventure ahead, looking forward to reading about it along the way! Safe Travels!

  54. What an amazing plan you’ve made for yourself! I’ve only found your blog recently, probably about 30 days ago, but I admire every project and every design you’ve accomplished. You have beautiful vision, and I can only image how that will translate and transform with your new surrounds and the path you’ve chosen for the new Jenna Sue.

    Good luck in your journey. You are doing something some of us only dream about!!

  55. Wow- going to Thailand and not even frightened! Now since I’m a God’s girl that tells me that the God has a plan for you that is so undeniable that you are embracing it with all of your heart. I commented the other day that I thought you were moving on, and so you are. Just as you have put all of your energy into DIYing for so many years, you will now be able to focus on self-discovery. I could see where being consumed by all the projects to make your home perfect can only distract you from self-realization for so long. Then you have to go outside of that familiar realm and “spread your wings.” I too am curious about what becomes of your house, your cats, and your possessions. But it’s obvious you have made peace with all of that and are well on your way for the next chapter in this journey called life. I am a fan, so I will be following along for that next chapter…. And may the Lord bless you and keep you. Sherri

  56. I was searching for a good upbeat quote to give you to help you on your way on your new adventure. My favourite at the moment is Paulo Coelho, but to be honest all of his quotes would be apt. I really wish you good luck, and so sorry for all the pain you’ve had to go through to get to this point. xx

  57. Best wishes on your new journey, hope this new chapter brings you joy and inner peace. I’ve been a long time reader but first time I comment. You’ve accomplished so much in terms of your house and your business, you are a determined person so I am sure that, when you are ready, you will accomplish new goals in this new adventure. For now, just enjoy! Safe travels and take care!

  58. Holy shit! You are brave! And here I was certain you were going to tell us you were pregnant. Good luck and of course we’ll keep reading!

  59. Courage dear friend. Some of us are also on the precipice of making similar journeys. You will be kept in thought and prayer. Be very careful in your new surroundings and again, courage.
    Love going out to you.
    Deb

  60. Best of luck! I’ve been divorced and starting over…hard but invigorating…spending time finding me and crafting a new life was key because now happier than ever before! You go girl! I will also continue to follow and send good thoughts your way!

  61. One of my contributors from my other blog, The Women’s Room, sent me here. I want you to know that, through a fluke, in 2011 my whole life was laid bare for the world to read about. I thought the world had ended. I also am a decor and garden blog. Now I tell the raw truth. Sometimes it’s hard. Some people can’t take it. But it also helps the many women who write to me to thank me for being honest. I’m hoping there will be a change in Blog Land, and all the “pretty little pictures on the wall” will take a backseat to real life. I admire you and will now follow you on your journey. I have Aspergers, so can’t see myself doing what you’re doing, and I’m now in my fifties, but boy, do I commend you for doing it!
    Brenda

  62. Jenna, I’m so sorry to hear this. I’m a huge fan of your blog and love your designs. I’m sad to see the designer side of you to be going (or put away for a while). I hope new adventure helps you find that missing piece.

  63. You are a very brave woman Jenna Sue. I haven’t been following your blog for long but I have read so many of your old posts and have been so inspired by your creativity.

    If you ever find your self in Sydney Australia as part of your travelling adventure I’d be happy to put you up for a few days!
    Wishing you all the best.
    Victoria x
    http://vintagegirl1.blogspot.com.au/

  64. Sorry to hear about your troubles, but I wish you nothing but the best in your new adventure. I have enjoyed your blog and the beautiful pictures of your home you have shared. Hope to hear more from you in the future.

  65. Jenna, I’ve been following since Florida and I have bought a few items from your site. Very talented lady that you are can’t wait to see what you post about your adventures overseas. You are always the FIRST blog I go to (believe me I follow a bunch) I’m not going to lie, I sure will miss all your great DIY projects. But I’m looking forward to seeing what’s next. REmember when you get older you won’t regret the things you did do, you’ll regret the things you didn’t do. Good Luck Jenna and PLEASE be careful

  66. Transformation – isn’t that really what life is all about? Thank you for bringing me this gift of realization – had I not been trying to find the best way to express support for you I might night have clarified that thought for myself. Stay safe, listening to your body and intuition as you continue your journey towards internal peace, self-knowledge and soul tranquility. Stay grounded as you learn to flutter your wings into a new life.

  67. Jenna,
    I’m very sorry to hear about your separation. I read your post early this morning and its been with me all day. I feel like a friend that has been searching for the right words to say. I am amazed at how incredibly brave you are. This couldn’t have been an easy post to write and then post for the world to see. But it sounds like you are happy with your decisions and the path you are setting out on and I am happy and excited for you as well. Thank you for the inspiration you have given me to update my home, your beautiful gray kitchen cabinets are the reason both my bathroom vanities are now gray! You have also inspired me to try my hand in blog writing as well. I also recently ordered a print of my wedding vows from your Etsy shop which I love! Wishing you the best of luck and safe travels. I think amazing things are in store for you. Looking forward to your posts from Thailand.

    p.s. One of my fave LOTR quotes. Just perfect.

  68. Hoping your grand adventure is all you hope it to be and that you find yourself in the journey, no matter how amicable the loss of a relationship is always difficult so be kind to yourself. Immerse yourself in knew experiences, explore new vistas and cherish the small magical moments. Looking forward to seeing photos of your journey as you post.

  69. You are such an inspiration! Praying for healing as you work through this. Looking forward to your future posts!

  70. So sorry jenna to hear of your trials God loves You !im sure of this,and if u havnt yet ,give him a chance to show you how his mercies are new every morning. And that he died for you that you might live eternally! This world and all its struggles are bound to get us down for even when we are on the top it wont last forever,but Jesus love is forever. And as a daughter of the King i am so thankful that at the end of the day mo,matter what i have peace sweet peace,best wishes jenna sue i hope u will also find peace on your adventure to Thailand!

  71. Long time follower. I had to re-read your post a couple of times to make sure I was reading it right. You’re right, no one sees and knows your personal struggles. It’s so easy to assume everything is peachy.

    I just want to wish you safe travels as you begin your healing process. Enjoy the culture and the people. Do what YOU want to do.

    Can’t wait to follow you on this new adventure. Hang in there, we’re rooting for you.

  72. Jenna,
    I have admired your determination and resourcefulness coupled with a talented eye for design. Thank you for providing inspiration and practical tutorials over the years. Wishing you a safe and productive adventure!

  73. long time follower- never commented. Strength to you as you discover……it will be good it will be sad……but you will come out a stronger and sure and true to what you want. I’ll keep reading and thinking about your adventures…. And commenting constantly….well Jenna sue did this….. And there are enough projects to keep me busy for a good while

  74. Hon, you are living your truth and that takes courage and guts. Have an awesome time in Thailand. Keep listening to your heart and it will tell you what you need. I think too often we don’t listen to our inner voice, because it is easier or safer we think to stay. I have been on your journey and I know you will find what your looking for. I decided i wanted love like the book The Notebook and was determined to find it and I did. It is worth the wait, worth living through the break up of my first marriage, worth finding my truth and being authentically me. Always remember you are stronger than you think, braver than you know and more beautiful than you imagine. We will all be cheering you on. Hugs and much love

  75. Hi Jenna, I am friends with your mom and dad. Sorry we haven’t met yet. I truly wish you all good things that life has to offer. If life is pointing you in such a direction you owe it to yourself to find out why. Just like your doing. What an amazing opportunity. Enjoy every minute of everyday. Thought I would pass along something I recently came across…
    http://thewanderlustkitchen.com/39-things-need-know-traveling-thailand/
    You are going to find out a lot about yourself in the course of your travels. May you find what you are longing for and may you be truly happy when get there. Please don’t hold anything back in your posts.. would love to know what your thoughts and feelings are as you travel down life’s journey for you. Be safe and Happy! Much Love..Lisa

  76. We change and we grow and life is all about the ebb and the flow. It is too bad that y’all grew apart but you never know what the future holds. I admire your courage in doing something to break outside of your comfort zone and really explore what life has to offer! I also greatly respect that you didn’t throw ugly all over him. I don’t know him but you clearly loved him once and I appreciate that you respect that enough not to throw him under the bus. I sincerely hope he is being as gracious. Breakups are hard but they are harder if one of you (or both of you) gets mean. I hope you are blessed in your travels!

  77. Oh, Jenna Sue! The endings are sad, but there was goodness too in your marriage and hopefully you both will be able to see the good stuff one day. Our expectations of marriage are so high, that the relationships can hardly live up to it. Don’t think that it failed, just think that it ended, like so many other types of relationships end. We may miss them but they are over. Take the time to mourn your old expectations. I wish you peace.

  78. I knew this would be the announcement. Sorry to hear it- I’m sure you’re hurting right now. Maybe one day you can share more about your story in order to inspire and help others.
    What do you think will become of the new interior design venture?

  79. I’ve never commented before, but wish I had sooner because I have been admiring your wonderful house from afar – love everything about it!
    So sorry to hear, but very in awe of your bravery! I’ve been to Thailand a few times (I have LOTS of family there) and it’s amazing. You will be shocked at how different things are there, but also amazed. If you can make it out to Phuket (pronounced “poo-ket”), I highly recommend that you go – LOVED it there! I think Thailand will be a wonderful place to explore – not only explore a new place, but yourself as well. Good luck to you and I’ll be looking forward to future posts.

  80. I’ve been enjoying your blog for a long time. First of all, thank you – thank you for sharing your journey and for inspiring me. I wish you courage and luck as you navigate through this difficult time and begin a new chapter in your life. Be safe. *Hugs*
    – Pam

  81. Sorry to hear that you are going through hard times, but from hard times, comes change and loads of it. A soul searching mission is just what the doctor ordered. You will discover new things about yourself and places you visit and opportunities to meet new people that you wouldn’t normally will open up. I say keep the blog change part of the direction of it to suit, we all love seeing design but we also love real life stories and you no doubt will find amazing designs etc that we can drool over. Stay true to yourself and follow your heart. Oh and if you want to stop by Australia, we’d love to have you! I live in the tropics in Cairns and its an amazing place to live and meet people. In fact we have a french guy arriving on our door today who we have never met but he wants to experience family life in australia so we’ll give him a taste! Have loads of fun and keep us all up to date! Amanda xx

  82. Good luck to you Jenna! You really are brave to start your life over. I’ve truly enjoyed following your blog for the last 3-4 years and I look forward to seeing what this new adventure holds for you. By following your heart, I am confident that you will find the true happiness you are looking for.

  83. I am a new follower of your blog so I didn’t know the old Jenna Sue so I’m looking forward to getting to know the new Jenna Sue! Make the most of your life!

  84. You go girl! Firstly so brave of you to share. I wish you all that your are looking for and more. Good luck. We here in blog-land look forward to your safe travels Xx

  85. Hardest thing I ever did 20 years ago. My “new” husband and I are celebrating our 18 year anniversary today, so I’m definitely that I got out 20 yrs ago!

  86. Jenna,
    I’ve been reading since you were featured on Etsy for “Quit Your Day Job.” You have been an inspiration to me for quite some time now. It’s your realness and rawness that attracted me to your blog/story. I hope one day to follow in your footsteps of courage, creativity, and fearlessness. Thank you
    for trusting us enough with something so personal. We’re all here for you and wish you so much peace during this introspective time! *hugs*

  87. As someone who has struggled with similar decisions, I would love to read whatever you’re comfortable sharing. Best wishes for your future. I hope Thailand is wonderful.

  88. Jenna,
    It is true that when one door closess, another opens. Please continue to be the smart, wise, and beautiful woman that you are. Do not be pulled down to lower levels but always onward and upward! I send you positive thoughts and an amicable and pleasant close of this chapter. Life is so full of challenges and many people create anchors so they cannot move on. You have chosen success and life!
    Many blessings and growth will follow!

  89. Thanks for the honest post Jenna Sue, I know it must have been hard to project the facade of “perfect” when things were falling apart. Thankfully, new things are falling together for you and as you embark on that long flight to Bangkok know that you’ll still have readers and supporters here.
    p.s. I’ve wanted to ask since you moved back to CA (but didn’t want to sound stalker-y) what your favorite flea markets are here in NorCal? I make the trip to Denios in Roseville sometimes but it’s mostly mass produced crap these days. Love your style and the finds you’ve shared over the last year.

  90. Jenna- you are SO brave. My heart goes out to you as I got divorced last year and am going through some major soul searching to find happiness. Just remember that the hard times pass. I’m so happy for you that you are listening to your heart and are doing what you need to do. Best of luck to you.

  91. Sorry that you had to go through such a difficult time. You are obviously a brave, talented, and beautiful girl. You will be ok, even if it doesn’t feel like it now. So proud that you decided to go on this journey! Soak it all in and share if you can! Best wishes!

  92. WOW! I bookmarked your blog about a week ago (via some Pinterest thing) and just started reading today. What a great post to read for my first visit! I am so much more inspired by you and your vulnerability to share with your readers is very inspiring. Can’t wait to read your next post from Thailand!

  93. Psalm 86:11 “Teach me your way, O Lord, that I may walk in your truth.”
    Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”
    Praying you find peace and truth in Jesus…the true Prince of Peace.

  94. Jenna, my heart goes out to you. <3 I wish you all the best in Thailand – what an exciting adventure! I absolutely admire your bravery, and I hope that we continue to see your journey. Lots of hugs from a hop, skip and a county over. 🙂

  95. I’ve found so much inspiration, design-wise, in your blog though this may be the first time I’ll comment. I’m sorry to hear your suffering. If it gives you any solace or peace, you will be in my prayers.

  96. You are so amazing and brave. Its been so lovely looking at your wonderful transformations of your Florida house and now your California house. I watch every post to see the clever things you do and truth be told steal a few ideas! I am sad you will not be finishing your fabulous house, but hope you go on this amazing journey and find the joy and happiness you have been missing. Thailand is a beautiful country full of the most kind hearted loving people, I know they will embrace you. Hire a moped and explore the island of phuket, so many beautiful beaches around every corner. If you decide to pop down to Australia youll find even funnie,r nicer people with even nicer beaches! I wish you all the best and hope you have the most incredible adventure……..a part of me wishes I could so exactly what you are doing.

  97. Good luck to you Jenna. This really feels like you are doing the right thing. I’m also put in mind of a certain Elizabeth Gilbert, as someone mentioned in an earlier comment or two. I’m sorry for the heartache that brought you to this place, but glad for the bravery and courage and hope that empowers you to take this leap. As they say here in France, Bon Courage!!!

  98. I’m also a long time reader but have never commented before. I love your blog and you have given me so much inspiration . I’m looking forward to reading about your adventures in Thailand and wish you all the best. Go girl!!

  99. Keep us close! We are with you every step of the way. Remember: life is a wonderful adventure! You and Brad will both grow and flourish in time. Take it one day at a time. Big hugs!

  100. I am a day late and a dollar short, but…
    I know you will find the right path, whatever it is. And I will keep you in my RSS feed, because I like what you have done so far. Best of luck to you.

  101. Jenna not only do I know this is going to be an amazing adventure for you and life happens but it leads us where we are meant to be. Reading these comments from people and seeing the support makes me tear up. One because you are amazing and a wonderful soul and it’s great to see the love flowing your way. Also I love all the Diy projects and your also my friend but I am beyond looking forward to reading your internal journey and also your adventure. I am beyond excited to see what the future holds and what the Jenna I know who is capable and intelligent can accomplish! You got this girl! I’m in your corner supporting you all the way!!!!!

  102. Only today did I stumble onto your site while thinking about making over my ugly interior doors. Your August 14th post was the first I’ve read from you and it gave me a hitch in my heart. Last year I divorced after finding out my husband had been leading a double life the entire 15 years we were together. Strange sounds of utter despair came from me and many pillow cases were ruined as I dealt with the pain and fear. But this year I feel like I’ve been released from prison and I’m experiencing the best year of my life at 52! I’m so excited for you and proud of this stranger I don’t even know, yet share this unspoken bond with–the bond of breaking free and starting over. I’m looking forward to reading about your adventures as you continue to explore and create a meaningful life.

  103. I can imagine this a hard time for you – we all go through those times but, boy, do I admire your spunk! The Sierra Foothills and our Lkae tulloch family are going to miss you while you embark on the polar opposite of a small town life. Maybe, in the end, you will prefer the ‘hometown’ but I have a feeling there are big things in store for you no matter where you are. You’ll certainly grow from this new experience – and I’ll bet your design will too. We have kids your age, though, so I’m sure your parents are doing some nail-biting and I will be thinking of them too. Stay safe, seek and find, and we look foraward to hearing about the adventure. God Bless!

  104. But I just found you! I’ve had to sit with your news for a day, scroll around the blog and see it with new eyes. You know, what’s really bothering me? You must miss your kitties. Where are they? What happens to your beautiful home? I know you’ll answer what you’re prepared to answer all in your own time. Some of my questions are salacious, like about your home. But my heart really hurts for your heart in all that you must be feeling. I remember a post a bit back where you’d asked for prayer, and my heart felt for you then too.
    I guess since I just got here, I can go back over your old posts, and look forward to your new adventures. But I send you love and well wishes on your new adventure.

  105. I seriously thought you were trying to play some sort of joke when I started reading this blog post. I’m sorry to hear of your troubles, and I hope you have an insightful time in Thailand.

  106. Jenna,
    I’ve only been following you for 3 days…in search of some great DIY tips. I went and opened my page this morning at 5:30 and read this. Your right. This is like a cyber world. None of us know what your heart has been going through. I had to scroll all the way down the page because I know there are some who are touched and feel your pain. I for one have been there. When I’ve figured out that some relationships were based on lies and questions. Just remember not to run away from someone or something in this life. Please keep us posted of your journey.

  107. Jenna – how brave of you to come forward and share this part of your life. It’s not easy. Life is messy – imperfect and tilted and crazy. The only sane thing is you – I hope you find a new beginning and fly on wings you never knew you had.

    I would not leave this blog if you paid me.

    Be safe and I hope you land softly in your new life :):)

  108. First and foremost, I pray for your marriage. Of course I know nothing about what goes on behind closed doors, so when my assumption is one of just a loss of feeling and not abuse or infidelity, please know that’s from where I’m coming with my comment. As someone that has been there and done that, I pray that you will really fight for your marriage. It’s sad, for me, to see someone that has possibly fallen for the myth of finding oneself. I sense a pattern with you. Your time in Florida, moving back to be near family, taking on a fixer upper, and now your new adventure were and are all attempts and hopes of putting yourself in new situations and hoping for a new Jenna. Those situations usually work but only temporarily.

    I know you mentioned looking good on paper and that makes perfect sense for a person that makes her living looking good on paper. I suggest taking a long break from blogging. Definitely keep the journal, but take a break from writing for others. You don’t need uplifting comments or advice from people like me – strangers. I can only tell you from experience that the biggest metamorphosis you will ever experience is fighting through those times in a marriage when you’re just not “feeling” it or only looking good on paper.

    I admit that my viewpoints are decidedly Christian. I think that you are married to your husband for a reason. It is not an accident you married him. You mentioned being in a new location where you can no longer fall back on certain crutches but we humans are amazing at finding ways to make new crutches or modifying our old ones to fit the new location. I think what you’re looking for is right where you left it – at home.

  109. Jenna,
    I’ve been a loyal follower of your blog ever sense your Florida house, I will continue to follow your journey. I’m excited to see the outcome of this adventure you are taking! Cant wait to see your next post.
    xoxo

  110. I just read your post last night and wake up this morning to see there was a bomb in Bangkok!! I’ve read your blog for a while now and have never posted, but with all that has just happened I think we would all like to know you are safe! Please let us know you are okay…

  111. Jenna,
    I’ve been going through the same thing this year. Sometimes life looks so great on paper, but the heart truly knows. Follow the heart. Some day’s the world can be so suffocating that it makes it hard to catch your breathe. Enjoy this adventure. Know that you aren’t alone and we all wish you the best of luck. Hang in there girl.

  112. “Lord, you have made us for yourself and our hearts are restless till they rest in Thee”

    St Augustine

  113. You always have been and will continue to be an inspiration, Jenna, no matter what. I wish you the best on your journeys, design and otherwise.

  114. I have just seen the tragic news of the bomb explosion in Bangkok, read about the loss of life and the injuries…. Jenna Sue, please reassure us that you are alright, please!

  115. So sorry to hear of your recent separation Jenna Sue…. I’ve been following your blog for several years now and love to read about all that you do…. Wishing you love and enlightenment, and hoping you find inspiration and joy in your travels. I look forward to reading all about it <3

  116. Longtime follower here. Thank you for being your usual candid self yet you exude so much grace. Spread your wings & fly, gal. Thailand was where I felt the most peaceful I had been in a very long time. We were there right after the tsunami & the people, who had already suffered so much, were kind & humble & grateful. Wishing you a soulful journey.
    xo

  117. Good for you! How very brave too. I am going through something super similar and toying with the idea of leaving life in SF behind for a new adventure in Australia, so I am really excited to follow along with your Asian adventure!! Good luck and love 🙂

  118. Wishing you every ounce of happiness possible. I ended a 27 year marriage last August, I haven’t looked back. I’m living life with my littles and loving every second. Go find yourself and be, be wahtever you need to be.
    xxxx

  119. I am heartbroken over your breakup. Never are they easy nor do you “just get over it”…You are so right…all looks well in pics and on paper. I don’t have a blog of my own but i have been following you for quite some time now. You amazed me with each house transformation, especially the last one === i’m on all social media and sometimes it is a little depressing looking at picture after picture of these people i don’t even know but it looks like they are living a grandeosa perfect life. I’m not naive’- i know NOTHING is perfect but my Heavenly Father and i pray peace and many blessings as you embark on this new exciting journey. i hope you continue to update – it will be refreshing to read another’s BRAVE journey! May God bless y ou abundantly and may you be at peace and are safe every day! Take care of yourself. Be well with your soul : ) ~Cathy please post updates on instagram too!

  120. Jenna,
    I have been in your shoes and while I don’t know all your circumstances, being separated or ending a marriage is devastating. My heart hurt for you when I read your post. I truly believe media makes it out to be like it is no big deal and everyone does it, but it is truly a death and it is the process of being ripped from a person you love, but also the death of future dreams and plans that you stored inside of you and didn’t even realize until you see that those plans and dreams may not occur. My heart goes out to you during this time and I will be praying for you. My best advice because I have been in your shoes is to truly grieve the loss and don’t dismiss how hard this is. With social media it appears everyone lives are perfect, but dont pay attention to that, we all go through devastating things in life and you are not alone. Lots of love and blessings.

  121. Jenna-
    You are so brave!! Good luck on your next adventure and know that we are behind you!
    They say things happen for a reason, you may not know it at the time, but it will come to you. I hope that sentiment resonates with you as you leap into a new life.

  122. Hi Jenna,
    I’m very sorry for the difficult time you have been going through. You remind me of myself just a few years ago and I totally understand “where” you are. I did the same thing. I felt that life wasn’t worth anything if I couldn’t understand the purpose of us all being here. I needed answers to my existential questions, and I would stop at nothing to find them. Eventually I did find them and it was the greatest gift I could have received. There is a quote that I love:
    “Read everything, listen to everyone, believe nothing, until you research it thoroughly for yourself”. It’s definitely worth the journey if you find the Truth in the end but be careful all by yourself. Don’t let your guard down.
    You have to take your own path but if I can offer you a few pieces of advice: pray for sincere guidance from your Creator as you search for the Truth, read and study the history of all the main spiritual/religious paths so you can be sure of the Truth when you come across it, do not follow man-made philosophies, don’t judge a religion by some of its followers, demand proof of absolute authenticity of a book of guidance, and do not complete your spiritual journey without profoundly studying Islam, with the help of a devout Muslim (which can sometimes be hard to find).

    Good luck to you Jenna and thank you for sharing your wonderful design projects with all of us. It’s been so fun to check in with your blog over the years!
    Enjoy the journey 🙂

  123. While the end of a marriage is at least tinged with sadness, your positive attitude is amazing. I hope you find what you are looking for. You only have one life. Stay Safe.
    Jane

  124. Hi Jenna,
    I knew there was something up and I thought it might be an illness so on one hand I am very very glad that you and family are healthy but on the other I am sorry that your relationship has ended maybe being separated will give each of you a chance to think about it, but thankfully there are no children involved and it may be the best thing for you both, only time will tell. So I applaud you for going it alone, i moved to Hawaii on my own at age 21 and it was the best thing I ever did. I almost didn’t because a friend was supposed to move with me but she backed out and the community colleges in Honolulu did not accept my out of state application. My wise and wonderful mother, when I was starting to give up my dream of moving to Hawaii, told me that I would always regret it and I could aways come back if it didn’t work out, so thankfully I ended up moving to Maui for school and made a life for myself, met my husband and have been here for over 30 years. (I am on Oahu now) I can’t imagine my life if I didn’t make that move. So go for it and may you have a safe and wonderful journey, you have nothing to loose for now and only much to gain. Who knows what the future will hold and you can always return if it doesn’t work out. But I know it will be the best thing for you, take care be safe and if you ever come through Hawaii please don’t hesitate to email. Warmest Aloha, Ginger

  125. I am sorry for the loss of your marriage, however, I am completely in awe of your bravery and wish every one of us could be as lucky as you, to go on a soul searching journey after a separation. How amazing this must be, and I can’t wait to read all about it and see the beauty through your eyes….maybe I can make the trek one day!!

  126. You go girl! The world is yours for the taking! Life is nothing if not ever changing. Much love to you as you embark on this journey (which I realize you’ve been on for a while now, but I’m late to the news).

  127. Oddly enough, I stumbled upon your blog today never having visited before you started the journey you’re currently on. It’s strange because although I’ve never met you and I doubt we have very much in common I find myself identifying with you on your risk to start a new journey. I hope as you continue on that this adventure gives you new eyes and fresh perspective and brings you peace. Safe travels!

  128. Jenna, I am just now catching up on the blog. It’s been a few months since I last looked onto the blog and found your beautiful pictures of your new journey. I am so sorry to hear of your breakup. Asia is just a beautiful country and will hopefully help your heart heal. Please keep us up to date on your journey and the new Jenna Sue. We are all giving you a big hug!

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