Esmé Rose: A Birth Story


Our angel baby took her first breath exactly one week ago, on August 29th at 4:53 am.

Our world has been rocked as the hours and days blend together in the thick newborn fog. The entire experience has been surreal to say the least, and I wanted to write down as much as I could about her birth before it fades from my memory.

At my 39 week appointment I was checked for the first time, and pleasantly surprised to discover I was already 1cm dilated and 50% effaced. I hadn’t been feeling any contractions or cramping, and was hopeful that my body would go into labor on its own before the 41 week induction recommended by my doctor.

40 weeks came and went and I progressed to 75% effaced, but still only 1cm. With family in town and the nursery finally finished a few days later, I was ready to get this show on the road! We tried every trick in the book to get things moving. I was awoken by cramps one night after walking two miles, but by morning they were gone. I had to come to terms with the fact that labor wasn’t going to come naturally.

Stacy Larsen Photography

The day before my scheduled induction, I saw the doctor for one final checkup, ultrasound and NST. I was still at “1-ish” cm, but the baby’s heart rate wasn’t very active on the NST and the doctor recommended we go straight to the hospital to be induced. From the moment she muttered those words, my brain switched over into a whirlwind of nerves and excitement, and I’m realizing now that it will never go back to my pre-pregnancy state.

Stacy Larsen Photography

The hours and days to follow have been a blur to me, but we made sure to have Lucas take notes of the events and timing during the labor process so we could share our story.

On the way to the hospital we stopped back at home for a quick shower and to gather our bags. By 2:30pm we were checked in and anxiously awaiting family to meet us there.

An hour later I settled into my room as they started an IV and monitoring my contractions. I was already contracting every 2-3 minutes on my own (apparently the threat of being induced made my body start cooperating?)

However, I wasn’t feeling anything and the contractions weren’t making me progress. The nurse suggested I try walking around for an hour to see if that would help them intensify, and after being checked at 6pm I was still a “stretchy 1cm” with the baby showing no signs of dropping.

At this time, they decided to start me on cervidil which could be left in for up to 12 hours. The plan was to use this overnight, then switch to pitocin to begin active labor in the morning. The nurse confidently predicted I’d have this baby at 5pm the next day (after two hours of pushing).

Cristina Danielle Photography

Our family was in and out of the room during this time, wishing us luck and telling us they’d be back first thing in the morning to be there for the delivery. My sister stayed with us for a few hours as labor began to record photo and video.

Cristina Danielle Photography

By 7:30pm the contractions started getting uncomfortable, though they still followed the same 2-3 minute pattern on the monitor. I tried to move around as much as I could and keep myself distracted, but even in the rest period between contractions there wasn’t much relief.

At 9:45pm the nurse came in to check me, and I joked that I surely must be at 10cm by now. My heart sunk when she said I was still only around 1.5cm—how many hours of this would I need to endure?

Cristina Danielle Photography

I was given an Ambien to get some rest, but there was no way I could relax for even a minute as the pain intensified into what felt like one continuous contraction with varying levels of pain. I tried bouncing on the birth ball which seemed to provide the most comfort, but the monitor kept losing the baby’s heartbeat in that position so I was told to stay on the bed.

By 11:45pm the contractions were lasting 45-60 seconds every other minute, and the intense pain mixed with the Ambien left me in a daze. I tried to remember the breathing techniques I had learned but it was difficult to stay focused on anything.

Cristina Danielle Photography

At 12:20am I was checked once again, and had finally progressed to 2cm. All along we’d been told I needed to reach 4cm to get an epidural, but the doctor said I had progressed enough at this stage that they could administer it. 30 minutes later I vaguely recall the anesthesiologist entering the room. I held still through a contraction as the epidural was inserted and remember thinking I’d rather take 100 of those than one contraction.

Within minutes, my toes started tingling as I felt my body begin to relax. The pain slowly began to subside, and all I can remember are the lights going dim as I closed my eyes for the first time that evening.

I was awoken at 2:40am to check on my progress, and in less than two hours I had made it to 6.5cm! Things escalated quickly from there, and just 90 minutes later I was complete at 10cm with the baby’s head fully engaged! They broke my water and I was feeling a lot of pressure and pain on my left side, so they called the anesthesiologist back in. He said I had a hot spot which he was able to correct by adjusting the epidural, and once it was working properly, it was time to push!

At 4:30am I pushed with the first contraction, and the baby’s head was immediately in sight. Around 15 minutes later the doctor took over, and I pushed through three more contractions. Esmé Rose was born at 4:53am, weighing 6lbs 13 oz and 20.25″ long.

She had swallowed a lot of fluid and was gone for what felt like forever as they cleared her lungs.

But she was full of life and wonder as they placed her on my chest, and stayed there for an hour and a half.

She nursed right away—I have vague memories of this but was told she nursed for a whole hour. We’re not really surprised though as we saw her practice swallowing at every ultrasound and she constantly had the hiccups in the womb.

I couldn’t imagine laboring without the epidural after six hours of minimal progress. As soon as the pain disappeared and my body could relax, she was in our arms less than four hours later. The night was a blur of pain, emotions and anticipation, but it was all worth it to bring our sweet girl into this world.

This is the first grandbaby on both sides and we’ve all been waiting a long time, so you can only imagine how loved this little one is.

She’s especially stolen daddy’s heart, and he’s been right there with me through every late night feeding, swaddle and diaper change.

We couldn’t have dreamed up a more perfect baby—she truly is an angel.

Now the family is back in California and we begin the process of settling into a new normal. My hormones are still all over the place and the love I feel for this little girl is overwhelming. Having a child truly is watching your heart beat outside of your body.

Esmé Rose LeBlanc, we love you more than you’ll ever know.

PS: In case you missed it, I shared a video of our pregnancy journey earlier this week… enjoy 🙂



42 thoughts on “Esmé Rose: A Birth Story

  1. What a beautiful story and beautiful little angel! Enjoy this new time as a family of 3. Thank you so much for sharing with us <3

    1. Jenna,this is so touching, especially the pictures with such emotion,like you my daughter,so sweet and lovley,thank you for sharing and letting us in your most private moments,your sister did a beautiful job on the pictures,and you and your husband did a beautiful job also,she is an angel,much love to you all💕❤️🌹

  2. As much as I wanted a natural childbirth, being induced is no joke! My body followed the same pattern as yours and as soon as the epidural was placed my body relaxed and progressed so quickly. So glad she arrived safely and that everyone is happy and healthy!

  3. She is such a beauty….and now the fun begins. Every milestone, every step, every word brings a whole new joy. With every stage of growth and learning you’ll say, now this is the best time, but really it’s all the best. Such total joy. Congratulations to you and your entire family. What a lucky little girl to be born into such a loving, lovely family.

  4. She is beautiful!
    Congratulations on your most recent “project” and all my best wishes as you travel the road to your and Luke’s new norm. There is no greater love and your life will forevermore be changed!
    Hang on to your hats… life is about to get REALLY interesting! :>)

  5. Congratulations! That is such a beautiful birth story and those photos are amazing. I wish the three of you the best of luck on this new journey!

  6. When this post was titled “Angel Baby” I got super worried! Glad the family is safe. So emo right now. Your story brings it all back. sniff.

  7. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful story! Esme is already loved around the world by your fans, me included! May God bless her and protect her always. I know we are all so looking forward to her growing up along with seeing all your future design creations! God Bless you all! Congratulations!

  8. 💕🥰👼🏼 I’m sure many of your followers will agree as I say “My heart is full with joy for you three.” My eyes welled up with tears reading this post. You captured the emotional journey beautifully. Thank you for sharing! Blessings to you.💕

  9. It seems everybody has captured the most incredible thoughts and wishes for you and your lovely family. Again congratulations. ♡♡♡ She is a beauty! Grandparents are essential to every family as they can truly bring that extra love. Hope they can visit often.

  10. Congratulations! Those postpartum hormones are seriously nuts, but hopefully they’ll start to settle down for you a couple weeks after the birth (and once you’ve gotten hopefully at least one 5-6 hour stretch of sleep!).

    Best of luck in this new parenting journey!

  11. Esme’ is just beautiful and perfect in every way. Thank you for sharing your story. When you follow your blog as long as I have, you begin to form attachments that wish you all the happiness and best as you blend into a family now of 3! Enjoy every minute! God bless.

  12. I captively held my breath when I saw you say “angel baby”; my heart practically sank. What a beautiful story and photos. You are truly blessed. I pray God’s protecting hand on Esme’s life. Love y’all.

  13. Congratulations Jenna and Lucas! And welcome Ms Esmé Rose to the world!
    Thank you for sharing your birth journey with us (years later – “Mom, Dad, you really did that! OMG!” I know you’re enjoying every second now, more than before, wondering how you could’ve created this gorgeous little angel! What a special little girl to be born first in both sides of your families. I look forward to every baby step she makes as you journey into parenthood. Love and blessings to you, your families, and Ms Esmé Rose! 💖

  14. This is so moving and will serve as a special documentary for Esmé when she gets older. So happy for the entire family that the Lord has blessed y’all with this sweetl little angel.

  15. Aw, she’s absolutely beautiful! I’ve followed along as you’ve shared your journeys and cried happy tears reading this. You can feel and see the emotions through your writing and photos. And the first grand-baby! —How exciting! God bless your precious family. Congratulations!

  16. bravo et toutes mes félicitations, Esmé Rose est une petite fille craquante et trop mignonne!
    je lui souhaite une très longue vie heureuse
    des câlins pour Esmé Rose
    Catherine, Bretagne, France

    congratulations, Esme Rose is a cute little girl!
    I wish her a very long and happy life
    hugs for Esme Rose

  17. Jenna,
    Thank you for sharing your birth story with us. I’m so happy for you and Lucas. The wait was truly worth it… an amazing husband and daughter!
    Being a mother changes it all!
    Enjoy every minute as it goes by too quick
    Blessings to you all!

    1. My boys are all grown adults … when people used to tell me to enjoy it that it went by fast I had NO clue how fast they meant, one day I woke up ad they were gone moved out and have families of their own, I still find myself trying to figure out how the time went by so fast !
      Now the same thing is happening with my grandson, I swear he was born yesterday but he is getting ready to go to kindergarten, the only difference is I know now how fast it goes by, so I really try to take in every second every teeny tiny thing he says and does because tomorrow he will be graduating from high school.
      I wish there was a way to put into words just how fast ” it goes by so fast” really does go by!!!!! 🙂

  18. Thank you for sharing! I am so glad you recorded it and took notes, because it all becomes a blur so quickly. So much newness in such a short amount of time. Enjoy every second, even the hard ones because you will miss those too, trust me 🙂 Congratulations you two, she is a beautiful little miracle!

  19. Awww…she is beautiful!! Thanks for sharing your story! Enjoy EVERY moment and sleep when she sleeps!! Best advice someone ever gave me when I brought my newborn home years ago.

  20. Congratulations on your little sweet Esme! You did great for a first pregnancy Jenna! My first one was just like yours and he took 22 hours to come out. Know that it will get easier with each baby you have! Congratulations again to you and Lucas!

  21. Congratulations! Esme Rose is as beautiful as her name. In related news your pregnancy dancing weekly video is the cutest thing I have ever seen. You two are so clever! I’m very happy for your sweet family.

  22. Jenna and Lucas,
    CONGRATULATIONS!!!
    Your daughter is absolutely beautiful, then again I had an idea she would be as both of you are very beautiful people!
    Jenna Sue, I love how you said having a child is like watching your heartbeat out of your body it happens in an instant and it never goes away…!!!
    I have no doubt you will cherish every moment with your sweet baby girl, your life as a family has truly just begun and the best is yet to come….I cannot wait to see the journey of your new little family as it grows and fulfills your lives…. well, at least as much as you want or can share! 🙂
    Oh, and I had NO doubt what so ever that Lucas would be there right by your side through it all night time diaper changes, wake ups and more, the two of you are amazing parents your sweet Esme Rose is a very lucky little lady although I have a feeling her Mommy and Daddy are the ones who feel lucky! tee hee 🙂

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *